52 weeks, Blue

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I find myself being the type of person who’d rather Netflix and stay up all night, talk about dreams, goals, art, literature and how you want to change the world.

Don’t get me wrong, I love partying. Going to clubs here and there. But it’s not a desire I feel so strongly for. Yea I don’t “turn up” on being on every scene nor do I find myself being boring at all. I’m not missing out on anything. I know what I want in my life and I’m not going to find it doing any of these.

‘Til this day, the minute I learned to love myself (first) I knew I didn’t want to be anybody else (for anyone else). My then greediness/confusion transformed into solid ambitions and aspirations. I finally revealed being my most multifaceted self and I embrace it.

It took a lot of hard-work, devotion to focus on God’s promises for me as I developed the bad habit of wasting away precious time focusing on the problems. But to be rewarded with peace, harmony and greater love is soo worth it. Yea I made mistakes but it just re-assured how human I was. That I was alive. That I could feel. And I have goals to accomplish.

Perhaps one of the best life advice I had read, I came across a post which had said:
“I was making a lot of mistakes and then my archery instructor said:” 
“you make mistakes because you’re focusing on the target and not on your actions”

My desire for continuing to grow sparked new adventures in my life. How to connect on different levels, surround myself with good energy and have so much passion for learning new things. I am building myself to get closer to “home”. And to build it too.

Eventually you’ll end up where you need to be, with who you’re meant to be with and doing what you should be doing.

– Love, Em.

52 weeks

September: Inspiration

10:06pm and can’t help but feel inspired again.

“Great things are coming when everything seems to be going wrong. Old energy is clearing out for new energy to enter. Be patient”

And this is true. Late August to September where I thought I was going downhill turned out to be another blessing in disguise. Seeing all these signs helps me be in tuned with my spirit and most of all my heart. Becoming filled with so much happiness has absolutely helped heal every part of myself.

“It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see” — Thoreau

Since discovering the power of my thoughts, my life hasn’t been the same. Like everyone else I use to think my reality was out of control, pre-destined when in truth I was ultimately creating my destiny through my own thoughts. Taking the time to study my mind, my habits, moral compass and the kind of thoughts I was entertaining rewarded me with the greatest discovery that I have to offer for myself, to others and for the world.

I’ve been putting my energy into the right places keeping myself centered better than I had anticipated. I am in no rush to reaching my destined goal but as of now I can’t help but feel this adrenaline by the choices and experiences I made to live out by.  This, I find really beautiful. Finding the many ways to be in love again.

– Em.